Friday, August 8, 2008

WHEN ENOUGH REALLY IS ENOUGH

WHEN LINES BECOME CLEAR, ITS MUCH EASIER TO STEP OVER THEM.OR NOT. I CHOOSE WHICH ON A DAILY BASIS.
I HAVENT BEEN WRITING BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN CELEBRATING WRITERS BLOCK. ITS NOT THAT I DONT HAVE THINGS TO SAY.
I JUST HAD THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THREE DAYS WITH SISTERS FROM TENNESSE, THEIR OLDEST DAUGHTERS AND MS POLLYWOG WOMAN.OH I FELT RELAXED,HAPPY SURROUNDED BY WOMEN.LET GO OF KEEPING THE HOUSE CLEAN AND BATHED IN THE BLISS OF SISTERS.SERVES ME RIGHT.
THE GARDEN IS FLOWING OVER BOARD AND I AM HEADED TO CANN BEANS,MAKE AND FREEZE MORE PESTO AND PERHAPS A THIRD MELLON....
I WONDER ABOUT LOVERS AND REALIZE ITS BEEN A REALLY LONG TIME AND HOW FOREIGN IT IS TO THINK ABOUT THAT AND HOW THAT IS ONE OF THE LAST THINGS I WOULD OF THOUGHT OF HAPPENING IN MY LIFE. I DONT SEE ANYONE I WANT TO KISS MUCH LESS SLEEP WITH.
MY RECENT RELATIONSHIP INTERACTION ...OR MORE LIKE DUMP WITH LAST HUSBAND LEAVES ME SICK TO MY STOMACH. I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO VIEW HIM AS DISABLE. HE CANT COMMUNICATE,CANT KEEP AGREEMENTS,CANT FUNCTION. HE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THINGS SO JUST DROPS THINGS EXPECTING ME TO STILL PICK UP THE PIECES.I DONT MISS HIM ANYMORE. ANY PART OF HIM.
I HAVE HAD SOME INTERSTING THINGS HAPPEN THIS YEAR IN ME. SHIFTS THAT ARE NOT IGNORABLE. I KNOW ME NOW. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I FEEL UNTANGLED ENOUGH FROM THE MEN IN MY LIFE TO KNOW ME. I LIKE ME AND I UNDERSTAND ME. I AM GOING T TAKE MYSELF ON A DATE OUT TO THE GARDEN I GREW TO PICK BEANS,BASIL AND A YUMMY CARROT OR TWO WHILE HUNTING FOR THAT RIPE MELLON.