new year ahead

a, its a new year and so many things are coming my way.

My new dog is working wonderful here with the boys.I am sill looking to place my male but meanwhile, we are all fine here together.Goatie girls are great.That would make a good bumper sticker!!

I have managed to buy myself two dogs without the punishment I have endured for many years past.Although the getting of polly for a friend netted me alot of sick punishmen fron Dana,

yup... them there is smiles

ones so big you could drive a 18 wheel through.Ah, its been a wonderful fall and soltice is coming and i charish the dark days and nights.I dont understand all the desire to light everything because its dark. its dark for a reason folks... sleep,dream, slow down.ready yourself for the coming winter and spring.
i love my new dog.she is very happy and i am glad for the switch.Right now there are more females then males here.Three goatie girls whom i adore and love and who come so fast when called.. jumping and leaping and showing just exactly how cool it is to have a body ..But i swear Sassy is gay. She has twice now been offered billy's...This one here now,Tyran is georgous..omg.And he kisses,licks,snorts..does all the things that would float my boat and her? she turns away... so...I wont force her.
life here is delicious.there are no other words and i am so grateful for my time here.
my time on the Sch. field is a time like i have never known and i find myself sobbing in bliss on the way home often.I love my dog.she is a terror on the field and even at home,no one can come in my yard unless she is locked up.She likes people.
I look forward while so enjoying exactly where i am.

tipping over

equinox is three days past and already I feel the darkness moving in like the low clouds on a beach.Soft on my face,swallowing me kindly.
I love Autumn,fall.Its my favorite time of year and I worship the movement of the sun and the angle.The soft oranges, yellow.The clouds moved in two days past and it was like welcoming a long lost lover.So nice with their big billowing self against the deep blue sky.Absolutely delicious.

WHEN ENOUGH REALLY IS ENOUGH

WHEN LINES BECOME CLEAR, ITS MUCH EASIER TO STEP OVER THEM.OR NOT. I CHOOSE WHICH ON A DAILY BASIS.
I HAVENT BEEN WRITING BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN CELEBRATING WRITERS BLOCK. ITS NOT THAT I DONT HAVE THINGS TO SAY.
I JUST HAD THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THREE DAYS WITH SISTERS FROM TENNESSE, THEIR OLDEST DAUGHTERS AND MS POLLYWOG WOMAN.OH I FELT RELAXED,HAPPY SURROUNDED BY WOMEN.LET GO OF KEEPING THE HOUSE CLEAN AND BATHED IN THE BLISS OF SISTERS.SERVES ME RIGHT.
THE GARDEN IS FLOWING OVER BOARD AND I AM HEADED TO CANN BEANS,MAKE AND FREEZE MORE PESTO AND PERHAPS A THIRD MELLON....
I WONDER ABOUT LOVERS AND REALIZE ITS BEEN A REALLY LONG TIME AND HOW FOREIGN IT IS TO THINK ABOUT THAT AND HOW THAT IS ONE OF THE LAST THINGS I WOULD OF THOUGHT OF HAPPENING IN MY LIFE. I DONT SEE ANYONE I WANT TO KISS MUCH LESS SLEEP WITH.
MY RECENT RELATIONSHIP INTERACTION ...OR MORE LIKE DUMP WITH LAST HUSBAND LEAVES ME SICK TO MY STOMACH. I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO VIEW HIM AS DISABLE. HE CANT COMMUNICATE,CANT KEEP AGREEMENTS,CANT FUNCTION. HE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THINGS SO JUST DROPS THINGS EXPECTING ME TO STILL PICK UP THE PIECES.I DONT MISS HIM ANYMORE. ANY PART OF HIM.
I HAVE HAD SOME INTERSTING THINGS HAPPEN THIS YEAR IN ME. SHIFTS THAT ARE NOT IGNORABLE. I KNOW ME NOW. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I FEEL UNTANGLED ENOUGH FROM THE MEN IN MY LIFE TO KNOW ME. I LIKE ME AND I UNDERSTAND ME. I AM GOING T TAKE MYSELF ON A DATE OUT TO THE GARDEN I GREW TO PICK BEANS,BASIL AND A YUMMY CARROT OR TWO WHILE HUNTING FOR THAT RIPE MELLON.

ITS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I HAVE WRITTEN. I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT SEVERAL TIMES AND EVEN HAD IT ALL FIGURED OUT BUT NEVER GOT TO THE COMPUTER TO PUT IT DOWN.

LIFE IS LIKE A FROG POND.ONE NEVER KNOWS WHO WILL SHOW UP...BUILD IT AND THEY WILL COME

SEEING THE BARK HOUSE THROUGH THE SMOKE.

THE MOUTH OPENS UP AND ALLOWS YOU TO ENTER IF YOU CHOOSE. TEMPERTURE IS PERFECT AND WELCOMING.I CANT QUIT CRYING AND I AM NOT SURE IF ITS FROM SADNESS OR RELIEF. SADNESS FOR BEING ALONE OR RELIEF BECAUSE I AM NOT ALONE... EITHERWAY THE ROCKS, SMELL IS FAMILURE LIKE I HAVE VISITED THAT PLACE BUT IT WASNT MY HOME LIKE THIS FEELS. LIKE I HAVE SAT AT THE ROCK FOR A LIFE TIME BEFORE.

ITS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT REALLY REMINDS ONE THAT THE GOVERNMENT CANT FIX EVERYTHING... OR ANYONE FOR THAT MATTER...

THE SMOKE IS THICK AND THEY ARE SAYING PEOPLE ARE GOING CRAZY FROM BEING STUCK INSIDE. MYSELF SOMEWHAT INCLUDED