new year ahead

a, its a new year and so many things are coming my way.

My new dog is working wonderful here with the boys.I am sill looking to place my male but meanwhile, we are all fine here together.Goatie girls are great.That would make a good bumper sticker!!

I have managed to buy myself two dogs without the punishment I have endured for many years past.Although the getting of polly for a friend netted me alot of sick punishmen fron Dana,

yup... them there is smiles

ones so big you could drive a 18 wheel through.Ah, its been a wonderful fall and soltice is coming and i charish the dark days and nights.I dont understand all the desire to light everything because its dark. its dark for a reason folks... sleep,dream, slow down.ready yourself for the coming winter and spring.
i love my new dog.she is very happy and i am glad for the switch.Right now there are more females then males here.Three goatie girls whom i adore and love and who come so fast when called.. jumping and leaping and showing just exactly how cool it is to have a body ..But i swear Sassy is gay. She has twice now been offered billy's...This one here now,Tyran is georgous..omg.And he kisses,licks,snorts..does all the things that would float my boat and her? she turns away... so...I wont force her.
life here is delicious.there are no other words and i am so grateful for my time here.
my time on the Sch. field is a time like i have never known and i find myself sobbing in bliss on the way home often.I love my dog.she is a terror on the field and even at home,no one can come in my yard unless she is locked up.She likes people.
I look forward while so enjoying exactly where i am.

tipping over

equinox is three days past and already I feel the darkness moving in like the low clouds on a beach.Soft on my face,swallowing me kindly.
I love Autumn,fall.Its my favorite time of year and I worship the movement of the sun and the angle.The soft oranges, yellow.The clouds moved in two days past and it was like welcoming a long lost lover.So nice with their big billowing self against the deep blue sky.Absolutely delicious.

WHEN ENOUGH REALLY IS ENOUGH

WHEN LINES BECOME CLEAR, ITS MUCH EASIER TO STEP OVER THEM.OR NOT. I CHOOSE WHICH ON A DAILY BASIS.
I HAVENT BEEN WRITING BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN CELEBRATING WRITERS BLOCK. ITS NOT THAT I DONT HAVE THINGS TO SAY.
I JUST HAD THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THREE DAYS WITH SISTERS FROM TENNESSE, THEIR OLDEST DAUGHTERS AND MS POLLYWOG WOMAN.OH I FELT RELAXED,HAPPY SURROUNDED BY WOMEN.LET GO OF KEEPING THE HOUSE CLEAN AND BATHED IN THE BLISS OF SISTERS.SERVES ME RIGHT.
THE GARDEN IS FLOWING OVER BOARD AND I AM HEADED TO CANN BEANS,MAKE AND FREEZE MORE PESTO AND PERHAPS A THIRD MELLON....
I WONDER ABOUT LOVERS AND REALIZE ITS BEEN A REALLY LONG TIME AND HOW FOREIGN IT IS TO THINK ABOUT THAT AND HOW THAT IS ONE OF THE LAST THINGS I WOULD OF THOUGHT OF HAPPENING IN MY LIFE. I DONT SEE ANYONE I WANT TO KISS MUCH LESS SLEEP WITH.
MY RECENT RELATIONSHIP INTERACTION ...OR MORE LIKE DUMP WITH LAST HUSBAND LEAVES ME SICK TO MY STOMACH. I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO VIEW HIM AS DISABLE. HE CANT COMMUNICATE,CANT KEEP AGREEMENTS,CANT FUNCTION. HE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THINGS SO JUST DROPS THINGS EXPECTING ME TO STILL PICK UP THE PIECES.I DONT MISS HIM ANYMORE. ANY PART OF HIM.
I HAVE HAD SOME INTERSTING THINGS HAPPEN THIS YEAR IN ME. SHIFTS THAT ARE NOT IGNORABLE. I KNOW ME NOW. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I FEEL UNTANGLED ENOUGH FROM THE MEN IN MY LIFE TO KNOW ME. I LIKE ME AND I UNDERSTAND ME. I AM GOING T TAKE MYSELF ON A DATE OUT TO THE GARDEN I GREW TO PICK BEANS,BASIL AND A YUMMY CARROT OR TWO WHILE HUNTING FOR THAT RIPE MELLON.

ITS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I HAVE WRITTEN. I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT SEVERAL TIMES AND EVEN HAD IT ALL FIGURED OUT BUT NEVER GOT TO THE COMPUTER TO PUT IT DOWN.

LIFE IS LIKE A FROG POND.ONE NEVER KNOWS WHO WILL SHOW UP...BUILD IT AND THEY WILL COME

SEEING THE BARK HOUSE THROUGH THE SMOKE.

THE MOUTH OPENS UP AND ALLOWS YOU TO ENTER IF YOU CHOOSE. TEMPERTURE IS PERFECT AND WELCOMING.I CANT QUIT CRYING AND I AM NOT SURE IF ITS FROM SADNESS OR RELIEF. SADNESS FOR BEING ALONE OR RELIEF BECAUSE I AM NOT ALONE... EITHERWAY THE ROCKS, SMELL IS FAMILURE LIKE I HAVE VISITED THAT PLACE BUT IT WASNT MY HOME LIKE THIS FEELS. LIKE I HAVE SAT AT THE ROCK FOR A LIFE TIME BEFORE.

ITS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT REALLY REMINDS ONE THAT THE GOVERNMENT CANT FIX EVERYTHING... OR ANYONE FOR THAT MATTER...

THE SMOKE IS THICK AND THEY ARE SAYING PEOPLE ARE GOING CRAZY FROM BEING STUCK INSIDE. MYSELF SOMEWHAT INCLUDED

ITS TIME AND AS IT GROWS CLOSER I FEEL THE PANIC BEGINNING TO GROW.I AM ALSO VERY READY TO BE DONE WITH THIS ALL AND MOVE ON.ITS AMAZING HOW DIFFERENT PEOPLE CAN SEE AND EXPERIENCE THINGS WHICH TO SOME COULD LOOK THE SAME,

FULL OF TEASING

I AM HUNGRY AND I WANT TO BE FED AND I DONT MEAN A BITE HERE AND ONE THERE. I MEAN I WANT A FULL MEAL. I WANT TO FEAST UNTIL MY CUP RUNNITH OVER. I WANT TO BE FILLED UNTIL I SQUEEK AS I WALK.I WANT TO LEAVE SNAIL TRAILS FOR SOME HUNGRY BEAST TO TRACK AND FEAST SOME MORE.I AM HUNGRY AND THERE FORE AM HUNTING. BECAREFUL. ITS A FULL MOON AND I FEEL SO FULL OF HUNGER.

FRESH FROM THE GARDEN

OF LIFE I EAT FRESH BEETS,CARROTS,PEAS,SQUASH...

THE BASIL IS BEAUTIFUL AND BLACKBERRIES BLOOMING. HE RETURNED THIS AFTERNOON AND I STEPPED OVER THE BOUNDARY ... ITS SO EASY TO DO IT WHEN NOT REALLY PAYING ATTENTION. ALTHOUGH THAT IS SO FULL OF IT.... I KNEW THE MINUTE I LIFTED MY HEAD....THERE IS JUST SOMETHING ABOUT THE WAY ONE APPROACHES ANOTHER.... THE INTENT IN MY WALK, THE LOOK OF MY EYES.USUALLY I KEEP MY HEAD DOWN... UNTIL I AM RIGHT THERE IS FRONT OF SOMEONE.ESPECIALLY MEN. BUT NOT TODAY.NO SIR... I WENT THERE IN A SARONG,BAREFOOTED AND A SHORT BLACK TOP.THEN TO TOP THAT OFF... I LOOKED HIM RIGHT IN THE EYE THE ENTIRE WAY TO HIM AND I FELT THE ENERGY LOADING.

TALKED TO ANOTHER WITCH AND SHE HAD LOTS OF REPRIMAND FOR ME ABOUT THE SPELL I AM SEEKING TO END. BECAUSE IT WAS A COMBINATION OF TWO SEPARATE ONES, ITS HARD TO KNOW HOW TO REVERSE IT.

EMOTIONAL EXPLOSION IN COLOR

THERE IS A EXPLOSION OF EMOTIONS GOING ON INSIDE ME AND IT IS MANIFESTING WITH A ARRAY OF COLORS FLOATING THROUGH MY BRAIN.THEY ARE WASHING OVER ME IN WAVES AND I WANT TO RIDE THEM WITH GRACE-
FEELINGS ABUNDANT YET NOT CLEAR. MY TIRED BODY HAS LEAKED INTO MY EMOTIONAL BRAIN AND I FEEL SLEEPY ON ALL LAYERS.
SITTING ON THE SIDE LINES HAS ITS BENEFITS... THE VIEW CAN BE CHALLENGING TO WATCH MUCH LESS LIVE THROUGH.
I THINK OF HIM AND FOLD UP. I THINK OF HER AND WANT TO SOOTHE ALL THE SORE PLACES.....

CALIFORNIA HEART

IN THE CORE IS THE STATE OF CALIFORNINA.

I CANT SAY MORE ON THAT.

ITS VERY LOVELY OUT AND THE PLANTS ARE EXPRESSING THEIR GLORY WITHOUT BEING SHY.THE BLUEJAYS HAVE MOVED IN AND ITS TIME TO SHOOT THE BASTARDS. NOW DONT MISUNDERSTADN ME, I LOVE THEM FROM A DISTANCE.I ONCE HAND FED ONE .WE CALLED HIM HOOLY AND HE WAS A REAL PEST.

BEING BORN INTO DEATH

WE SENT A FRIEND OFF TODAY. HE WAS A STATUE IN OUR COMMUNITY,A LEADER,A COSMIC JOKE.WHILE IT IS HARD TO BURY A SOLDIER OF PEACE SUCH AS HIMSELF,A WORKERS ADVOCATE,THE HARDEST THING IS FILLING HIS SHOES. WHO WILL HAVE THE PASSION?THE DRIVE TO BE THE TROUBLEMAKER? THE NOISE MAKER? WHO WILL KNOW THAT THE CORRECT THING TO DO IS NOT NECESSARY THE EASY THING. WHO WILL BE OUR NEW HERO'S? OUR NEW COMMUNITY CLOWNS?
YOU DESERVE THE BREAK MY FRIEND, BUT WE WILL MISS YOUR LIGHT OUT IN FRONT ENCOURAGING US ON .THANK YOU.

LIVING WELL IS GOOD MEDICINE

SOMETIMES IT FEELS JUST PERFECT WHEN YOU SEE YOUR X AND YOU JUST HAPPEN TO LOOK GREAT....AND SMELL EVEN BETTER...JUST THE WAY HE LIKED....
SOMETIMES IF IT IS REVENGE ONES SEEKS....
LIVING WELL IS THE BEST WAY.

OUR LIVES TOUCHED TODAY
AND IT DIDNT BURN

HEART OF STONE

I AM A COLLECTOR OF HEARTS. STONE HEARTS .ONLY BLACK ONES...THEY THROW THEM SELVES AT ME AND SOME DEMAND TO BE PICKED UP, SOME CARRIED AWAY. I NEVER BRING HOME A WHITE HEART. I AM NOT INTERESTED IN THE WHITE. I AM INTERESTED IN THE SHADOW WHERE THE COLORS ARE SO DEEPLY EMBEDDED IN ONE ANOTHER ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO BE ANYTHING BUT BLACK.
I AM OFTEN FOOLED BY STONES. SOME WILL LOOK LIKE A HEART..BUT ITS ONLY THE ONE BESIDE IT HIDING A SHARP EDGE, BROKEN CHIP.AND WHEN EXPOSED AND ALONE, THERE IS NO HEART. BUT COMBINED, I FIND HEARTS EVERYWHERE. I HAVE A HEART ROCK GARDEN. THE CREEPING THYME IS NOW COVERING EACH HEART ROCK.
ISNT THAT FUNNY IN A ODD SORT OF WAY... THYME COVERING HEARTS UP... MY OWN HEART COVERED ....BUT NOT BY INSURANCE SO I AM NOW MORE CAREFUL WHERE I TAKE IT AND ALLOW IT TO ROMP ON ITS OWN

HOME WITH NO CHORES DONE

BEAUTIFUL CLOUDS ROLLED THRUGH GIVING SPACE TO THE BLUE SKY EVERY NOW AND THEN.I TOOK A LONG BATH IN THE OUTSIDE TUB AND ACTUALLY WAS ABLE TO GET OUT BEFORE WAY TO LONG.I GET ANXIOUS WHEN I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THE WATER AND FIND EVERY POSSIBLE EXCUSE TO STAY THERE.LEADS ME TO WONDER ABOUT MY BIRTH AND HOW I WANTED TO STAY INSIDE MY MOMMA.

THERE ARE SEVERAL THINGS TO GET DONE THIS WEEK.I HAVE TO CALL THE LAND TRUST AND SEE ABOUT A MEETING WITH THEM AND THE TRIBE.I THINK THE FIRST STEP IS TO LOCATE/DEFINE THE AREAS WE WANT SAFE NO MATTER WHAT.. LOL... AS IF ANYTHING IS SAFE.

MY PUP RAN A AWESOME TRACK ON APPLET AT THE FAIR GROUNDS TODAY AND HE DID IT WITH A YOUNG KID RIDING HIS LITTLE DUNE BUGGY ALL AROUND US.AYK LEFT FOUR PIECES OF FOOD ON TRACK.HE WORKED IT REALLY NICE..HE IS GROWING INTO HIMSELF.

TOO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT.

YOU KNOW HOW IT IS WHEN THE WORLD IS SWIRLING AROUND WAY TO FAST AND ITS ALL YOU CAN DO TO JUST STAY UP RIGHT? YEA.. THAT'S IT. NOT BAD,NOT GOOD,JUST SWIRLING.FAST
MANY THOUGHTS ON THE FRONT LINE AND ALL OF THEM BEING POLITE.. YOU GO FIRST, NO YOU... SO ITS ALL BACKED UP AND THE ONLY THING FOR SURE IS THAT I NOW FEEL MORE SORRY FOR HIM THEN I DO FOR MYSELF.THAT IS A MILE STONE FOR THIS GIRL.AFTER YEARS I STILL AM TRYING TO UNTANGLE IT ALL. FIND OUT WHY I DID WHAT I DID AND HOW TO CLEAN IT ALL UP SO LONG AFTER THE SPILL.I AM LONELY IN A ODD WAY.HOWEVER, THE REALITY OF MY LAST BAD CHOICE AND THE DAMAGE IT DID IS STILL RESOUNDING THROUGH MY LIFE SO I SIT ON THE SIDE LINE WATCHING AND WAITING .....FOR SOMETHING I HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT. SO IT MIGHT OF ALREADY COME BY...MAYBE SEVERAL TIMES AND I DIDN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE IT.... THOUGHTS SHIFTING LIKE THE CURRENT IN A FAST MOVING RIVER.
I SAW LITTLE SISTER TODAY.SHE SMELLS LIKE HOPE ETERNAL.I COULD SNIFF HER LITTLE HEAD FOR DAYS.SUCH A HAPPY BABY.HER MOMMA IS DOING A AWESOME JOB AND IS A INSPIRATION TO WATCH WITH HER PUPPY..
WATER FLOWS
WARM LIKE
YOUR ARMS ROUND ME
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.

PLANTS, DOGS,WOMEN,LIFE,DEATH,AND A PASSION FOR MORE.

AHHHHHHHH SOMETIMES....... I JUST WANT TO FOLD.SOMETIMES THE DESIRE TO WORK THROUGH THINGS IS EH=XHAUSTING AND I WOULD JUST AS SOON SLEEP

LISTENING TO THE VOICES OF THE OLD WOMEN......

LISTENING FOR DIRECTION ABOUT MY LAND, MY HOME, MY PLACE OF PRAYER.THERE USED TO BE MANY MAIDU PEOPLE HERE.THEIR FOOTPRINTS STILL HERE. TODAY I SPOKE WITH THE HEAD OF THE TRIBE AND HE SAID THIS WAS ONE OF THE BIGGEST SIGHT THEY KNEW ABOUT.WE SPOKE ABOUT MY POTENTIAL POND SITE AND HE SAID NO,THE PLACE WAS TOO SPECIAL.I SAT AT HIS FEET LISTENING,FEELING LIKE I WAS LISTENING/TALKING WITH MY FATHER,MY SPIRITUAL TEACHER. I AM SO DRAWN TO HIM AND UNTIL TODAY I AM SURE HE COULD FORGET MY NAME EASILY.HOWEVER TODAY HE ACKNOWLEDGED MY RESPECT AND HONORING THE PLACE AND NOT DIGGING TO STEAL THINGS FROM THEIR RESTING PLACES. ITS BIGGER THEN ME,MY LIFE AND I AM HUMBLED,HONORED TO BE HERE AMONG THEM. I LISTEN AS QUIETLY AS I CAN FOR THE VOICES OF THE OLD WOMEN, FOR DIRECTION, FOR CLARITY.

LOVE DRUG

I NEVER HAVE LEARNED THE RECIPE
FOR THE PLEASURE WITH OUT PAIN DIET.
THE ECSTASY I FOUND IN YOU
DIDN'T SOFTEN THE LONG DROP
FROM THE HEIGHTS OF WHICH
YOU COULD TRANSPORT ME.
LIKE ANY ADDICTING DRUG
YOU WERE HARD TO RESIST
AND HARDER TO KICK.
YOU INVADED EVERY ASPECT OF MY BEING
TOOK OVER MY THOUGHTS,ACTIONS,DESIRES
YOU MY FIRST AND LAST THOUGHT OF EVERYDAY.
YEARS LATER...I THINK MAYBE JUST A LITTLE BIT,
PERHAPS FROM THE SIDE LINES I'LL WATCH...
BUT ITS JUST THE ADDICT TALKING
AND I FEEL THE POWER OF THE DRUG
SURGING THROUGH ME-SWEET TALKING
AH YES, I KNOW THAT DRUG CALLED LOVE
AND YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY..
ONCE A ADDICT ALWAYS A ADDICT...

RING AROUND THE MOON

THE FULL MOON ARRIVED AND WAS GREETED WITH A RING OF CLOUDS,CIRCLING AROUND SAYING POESY'S POESY'S WE ALL FALL DOWN


I FEEL SO LAZY AND CRAZY AND RESTLESS....


SITTING HERE IN THE DARK I CAN HEAR THE MOSQUITOES EATERS CRASHING IN TO THE CEILING.


MY FRIEND ASKED IF I WAS OVER IT.I SAID NO.I AM NOT LINEAL AND THINGS ARE ALL HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME FOR ME I FEEL THE YOUNG GIRL AS WELL AS THE OLD WOMAN INSIDE ME. IT CAN BE INTENSE TO TIME TRAVEL SO MUCH.



THE BATHTUB IS A WONDERFUL PLACE TO SLEEP. I HAVE BEEN SLEEPING IN TUBS FOREVER. I LOVE LETTING THE WARMTH OF IT TO LULL ME TO SLEEP AND FIND MY BEST SLEEP HAPPENS THERE. I ROLL OVER, LAY FACE DOWN AND LET IT SWALLOW ME. I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT I WOULD DROWN WHEN I LEAVE THIS BODY. HOWEVER I AM NEVER NERVOUS OF THAT WHILE SLEEPING IN THE TUB. OTHERS WORRY ABOUT IT.

MY GARDEN IS GROWING SO WELL I CAN HEAR IT FROM HERE.



HERE IS A POEM FOR YOU MY FRIEND.MY FANTASIES...


today i imagined you
looked at me
and told me
i was a good woman.
and it wasn't my fault
or yours.
Today i imagined you
returned my heart
unbroken.

RING AROUND THE MOON

THE FULL MOON ARRIVED AND WAS GREETED WITH A RING OF CLOUD

RING AROUND THE MOON

THE FULL MOON ARRIVED AND WAS GREATED WITH RING OF CLOUD

A FROG,A TOAD ...WHAT THE HELL

I wouldn't give a dime for a frog but would pay ten bucks for a toad if offered one...I haven't seen a toad up here in forever plus a day.They are as rare as porcupines.
Its overcast in the sky and my heart today.I think I am having a Scorpio moon over load where the emotions are playful.. in their own way...except it feels like a hang over..more later...i need water.......................................more water.

DIPPING FINGERS IN THE BOWL

ALWAYS WANTING A TASTE, I FIND MYSELF OFTEN IN TROUBLE FOR DIPPING INTO SOMEONE ELSE'S BOWL,PILE,,BED.. ITS JUST THAT I HAVE TO KNOW FOR MYSELF HOW IT IS... SECOND HAND NEWS ISN'T MUCH BETTER THEN SECOND HAND SMOKE.IT CERTAINLY CAN CAUSE AS MUCH DAMAGE.SO PERHAPS I DO DIP WHERE I SHOULD NOT.....I THINK IT WAS TOM ROBBINS WHO SAID THE ONLY TRUE APHRODISIAC WAS STRANGE STUFF... NOW ONE CAN... OR I.... CAN TAKE THAT MANY WAYS AND AS A TRAILING K9 HANDLER I FIND MY SELF WANTING TO CHECK ALL THE DIRECTIONS... JUST IN CASE...
I ENTERTAIN MYSELF WITH THOUGHTS OF BOY TOYS... BUT THE REALITY IS I HAVEN'T SEEN A MAN WITH ENOUGH NERVE TO TAKE ME ON IN A LONG TIME.THAT IS MORE DISTURBING THEN THE REALITY OF NOT BEING IN LUST AT THIS MOMENT.WHERE IS THE LUST IN OUR MEN? IT IS SCARY.VERY. ITS ONE THING TO BE A MALE AND GAY.. IT IS QUITE ANOTHER THING TO BE A MAN WITH NO NERVE.NO SEX DRIVE. BEJESUS HAVE WE TAKEN IT ALL OUT OF THEM? I AM WILLING TO PRACTICE WITH NO LICENSE AND LET THEM PLAY IN MY THERAPY SAND BOX WITH MY TOYS. IT CAN BE QUITE ENTERTAINING.THE MOON IS STILL IN SCORPIO AND I FEEL DANGEROUS. POETRY READING THIS EVENING AT THE RIDGE STOP AND I AM FEELING SO HUNGRY I MIGHT HAVE ME A BITE OR TWO... OF THOSE SOFT FLESHY HIPPIE BOYS WHO ENTERTAIN THOUGHTS OF ME IN THEIR ARMS...MORE LATER.THE WEED EATER CALLS.

singing songs

I SAW HIM TODAY.
I SAW HIS FACE.
IT WAS THE FACE I LOVED
AND I KNEW.... I HAD TO GET AWAY...

AH REMEMBER THE GOOD OLD DAYS OF SUNNY AND CHER...


OR ... WHAT'S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH IT??? GOT TO DO WITH IT???
TINA TURNER...

SOMETIMES LIVING THROUGH THINGS IS BY FAR A WORSE SENTENCE THEN GETTING TO GET OFF THE PLANE IN MID FLIGHT.
I SAW A OLD FRIEND TODAY.OR PERHAPS I COULD/SHOULD REFER TO THIS PERSON AS A FREIGHT TRAIN IN MY LIFE. A BOLDER IN MY POND THAT KEEPS RESOUNDING OUT. EITHER WAY ITS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT IS SO GOOD I WAIT YEARS FOR AND IS SO PAINFUL IT DISABLES ME MOMENTARILY OR LONGER....ITS A GLIMPSE INTO WHAT I HAD AND LOST FOR WHAT EVER REASON.BUT HAVING TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE GREATNESS OF IT EVEN IN ITS DEATH STAGES.OUCH.I JUST REREAD WHAT I HAD WRITTEN AND IT WAS IN THIRD PERSON SO I WENT BACK AND CHANGED IT.THAT IS HOW FAR I WANT TO BE FROM IT... I TALK IN THIRD PARTY AS IF THAT WILL CREATE EMOTIONAL DISTANCE FROM MY SELF.... AH THE GAMES PEOPLE PLAY..MOSTLY WITH OUR SELVES.
MY GARDEN IS BEAUTIFUL AND A INCREDIBLE SENSE OF PLEASURE FOR ME.IT IS EVIDENT THAT I HAVE EXCHANGED HUMAN COMPANIONSHIP FOR PLANTS,PLACE, CRITTERS.I FEEL SO MUCH SAFER. I NO LONGER AFTER TURNING FIFTY AM CONCERNED ABOUT LONGEVITY. I AM WANTING QUALITY.
THE MOON IS IN SCORPIO AND I FEEL SO CRAZY.I FEEL LIKE A CAT IN HEAT AND AM KNOWING I NEED TO STAY CLOSE TO HOME IN TIMES LIKE THIS NO NEED TO BE CALLING TROUBLE....AH WHAT I WOULD DO TO TROUBLE TODAY.... I WOULD LITE ITS BOOTS ON FIRE,STEAL ITS PANTS ..... OH FULL MOON IN SCORPIO AND I FEEL SO CRAZY

water everywhere

its everywhere i look and the frogs are coming from every direction to have some...I have put frogs out of the house every night now for six days. once there were two in the bathroom in one night. they were having a party.Doing laps in the the dogs water bowl. Ever notice what nice shoulders frogs have? swimmers. i love frog parties.they don't require a lot of preparation.
the rain birds sometimes sound like rattlesnakes and it catches me off guard.. Although after my recent capture and housing of one rattlesnake for a week I am not as afraid as usual.. i hope that serves me well.
My roommates for the record are three male dogs.I KNOW...THREE MALES? WHAT AM I THINKING... i guess i am making up for the lack of human males in my life...more on THAT subject later...
Its may and fire season is upon us and already i am nervous and very careful. so i dance in the water and celebrate its willingness to just keep flowing down hill.
i love and so therefore i am .i will. i do. a small poem for my opening blog page...


its all there inside
like a seed
sleeping
until the right ingredients
appear.
then there is nothing to stop
the sprout