Monday, April 20, 2009

spring has sprung

in my soul, its spring and things are blooming like nuts. there is so much yummy stuff happening in my life I just feel full.I am in love

roses,iris,bachelor's buttons,sweet williams,violets,honeysuckle,jasmine,clematis all blooming.Makes me crazy. bathing under huge blooming jasmine I feel drunk.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Married men.... and women

it is such a common joke that once married, men dont get laid..It is mentioned without anyone even being nervous or uncomfortable.Its old news.I wonder why this is acceptable to them or the women in these sexless marriages.Why it is the first thing to go south when trouble rears its ugly head, why people think their mates must be "loyal to them" instead of being loyal to themselves.There seems to be some gross reward system for not getting what you want/need so you can appear to be loyal,committed.I think you should be committed if you stay...but in a heath facility,not the marriage.
I like married men because they like fun sex.They love as everyone does, being adored,cooed over, lusted over.devoured.I love doing it.Its fun.I like it when its done back and I am not in anyway attached to it becoming a relationship.I dont ever again in this life time want to get "used to someone" or have anyone "used to me".That to me is worth yelling FIRE and running for your life... sex and all...
Meanwhile, I have having the time of my life.I am really happy with my land and how it is feeling,looking.The dogs are well.I am poor but clients are calling so I know it will be ok.I love where I am in my life, feel very grateful for this time alone and what I have learned.
Our hike to spencneville on Friday was incredible.Cata,Veronique,Rachael and I... climbed the highest mountain and had a picnic,laid in the sun naked with a 360 view...We were drunk in love.
Thank you so much for sticking with me body.I love you.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

morning glories and STD's..

When I offered Lorraine some morning glory babies....she shuttered... I said she looked like I had offered her the clap... She said no, the clap... she could get rid of that with a shot in the ass... Morning glories were more like herpes....
I think to my self... if that was all she who planted these left behind.... I got off easy....

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Friends

honeysuckle,jasmine,forsithia too
climbing rose,trumpet vine,
planted for you.
Hollyhock,sage,
iris galore
rosemary,thyme
alyssum and more.
my garden delights me in so many ways,.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Three feathers

I found at my feet three different feathers this week.
first a red shoulder hawks wind feather
second a blue heron wing feather
third a red tail hawk tail feather
different times and places.

I am so full I feel empty
so empty I feel full
moon shines on my ever softening face
and I have liliacs blooming inside me.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

step back and have a look-celebrate with nice long tub in the evening light.

the fence is moved and up.The fruit trees are planted.The place is mowed.My back is without pain.Lance has been a tremendous help with heavy work.My side has been silent until yesterday and a bit today when I realized I was over tired.The trees are leafing out here now and the amount of beauty is overwhelming.I am awe struck.The calves are being born and I feel so blessed to see their new faces and the tenderness between them and their moms.This morning there were about ten of the newest laying together with one mom watching them all while other moms grazed.I am always impressed in the community of cows.I feel blessed to be here now.at this time.I had bad dream of Oberon falling from high place and dieing.woke up with him beside me snoring..But fretted all day anyway.I have the beginning of a orchard.Eight trees.YES.Good job girl I say. good job.