Friday, February 20, 2009

There is a hole in the bucket....

dear lady dear lady... I have to have surgery.Either tomorrow or Monday.I am very scared.I am attempting to be brave.The pain is increasing when it should of been going the other direction... damn road sign.I am sucking on my rescue remedy.Not wanting this and at the very same time....knowing I have to embrace it to heal faster and better.I scared.I want Paula here to rub my head and remind me of the mighty giant I am.I have done scarier things.I just cant remember them right now!
Be brave I say.I want the pain to go away.Tonight when I got in the tub I was in so much pain I had to get out... geese Louise...
My head is a bit worried but my soul feels good...my body... its in wretched pain.....
later: No surgery... Hopefully lump will stretch out....

Monday, February 16, 2009

RAIN!

Slept in and then woke, watched the light change and Razzle be a big goof ball. He is always so happy. what a wonderful example of how to live life.enthused about everything!
I went for walk. feels good but taking it really easy and staying close to house/phone.The sky has been magnificent with big burrly clouds.so delicious looking.Grass will grow now that there has been some rain.I am amazed how much things have changed in a month.. pretty soon trees will have leaves.Much less pain today and I think stretching is now in order as long as I listen AND obey my body..no ignoring her. She drives this ship.
Spring is waiting outside the doorway of winter.waiting to ruin the rainy day party.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

grateful

its been a month since the accident and I am so grateful for my legs.The pain in my right hip is still awful and sitting is very difficult.But I can move.I am not paralyzed.I feel deeply grateful.all over.Still have months of work ahead but feel stronger and ready to be whole again and moving without pain knocking me to the ground.blessed be.