I have been reflecting on my life and realize I have learned some really good lessons recently.The Sch club is a intense place and the people there are very different from me(boy howdy) and its a fine line for me to walk.I know there is something bugging a few of them and in the past I would of asked,perhaps even pushed.I have learned to not pick the chick out of the egg.Let it happen, be born.Rather it is a baby,a dream,a passion- just let it unfold.This makes for a win win for everyone.Important lessons.
Been spending time with my mom.Working on being present with her.We went and had a Root beer float last week and she thought that was good.
I am so tired as I have been canning,drying...... going to bed now
when it rains the work will die back some!!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
whew what a summer...
I am full.To the brim.
It has been a summer full of experiences.The twins were here for eight days and we had several days of fun.We went to the high country and hiked around, swam in several lakes.Oh such beauty...(I need to learn how to put pictures here).
We took Razz and he was in seventh heaven..Naked women.His kind of girl.I swear he IS a man in a dogs body...
We also went Kayaking and had a blast.I am such a water woman....moon in Scorpio and rising in Pisces..Also the river....so very yummy.I love how the water can touch all of me at the same time.The best lover I swear.......
Oberon isn't well.Right now he is limping on three out of four of his limbs and its painful to watch.I find myself emotionally unable to make good decisions about it so this morning when at the park, I asked a woman who I thought was in her 80"s if I could ask her a question.... I told her about his age and his pain.She clearly could see his love for me as he never took his eyes off me while we spoke.... I expressed my inability to know how to manage his pain.She looked at me,put her arms around me as tears ran down my face and said.... He knows what he is doing.... let his manage his own pain.I thought how silly of me...I have trusted him so much,followed him when I had no idea where the trail went...So why now do I think I need to take over? Good question.Part of it is I know what kind of dog he is and he who would drag himself if he thought I needed him.He loves me more then he loves himself by far.So I must respect that and understand that to the true depth he offers it and not ask of things which now will hurt him.Other parts are drifting into my brain...
I had a delicious time with my dad,other momma, sister and three nieces.We had a wonderful visit that I think left us all feeling like we were connected.I love all the nieces.
My freezer is full of peaches,strawberries,blueberries,blackberries....YUMMY.... I too the HR Training aids to Peter.No room here for death.Peaches from my own trees!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weee haw!!!! Boy howdy.......
I found two new grinding holes last night.Small like my breast.
It has been a summer full of experiences.The twins were here for eight days and we had several days of fun.We went to the high country and hiked around, swam in several lakes.Oh such beauty...(I need to learn how to put pictures here).
We took Razz and he was in seventh heaven..Naked women.His kind of girl.I swear he IS a man in a dogs body...
We also went Kayaking and had a blast.I am such a water woman....moon in Scorpio and rising in Pisces..Also the river....so very yummy.I love how the water can touch all of me at the same time.The best lover I swear.......
Oberon isn't well.Right now he is limping on three out of four of his limbs and its painful to watch.I find myself emotionally unable to make good decisions about it so this morning when at the park, I asked a woman who I thought was in her 80"s if I could ask her a question.... I told her about his age and his pain.She clearly could see his love for me as he never took his eyes off me while we spoke.... I expressed my inability to know how to manage his pain.She looked at me,put her arms around me as tears ran down my face and said.... He knows what he is doing.... let his manage his own pain.I thought how silly of me...I have trusted him so much,followed him when I had no idea where the trail went...So why now do I think I need to take over? Good question.Part of it is I know what kind of dog he is and he who would drag himself if he thought I needed him.He loves me more then he loves himself by far.So I must respect that and understand that to the true depth he offers it and not ask of things which now will hurt him.Other parts are drifting into my brain...
I had a delicious time with my dad,other momma, sister and three nieces.We had a wonderful visit that I think left us all feeling like we were connected.I love all the nieces.
My freezer is full of peaches,strawberries,blueberries,blackberries....YUMMY.... I too the HR Training aids to Peter.No room here for death.Peaches from my own trees!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weee haw!!!! Boy howdy.......
I found two new grinding holes last night.Small like my breast.
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